Summer WaterScapes

Watercolor on paper, 6x8 

 During this year,  I have found that working in watercolor is more relaxing than oils.   They are easy to set up for a work area, and it's much easier to be able to finish a painting in a single day or weekend.  I love being able to take small breaks while the paper dries before I put on a new layer of color.

These lake scenes  are en plein air paintings while vacationing in northern Michigan.  It feels good to get out of the studio and sit outside all day, and still be productive. If not painting, I can sit outside all day lounging under a tree looking at the water and waves, feeling the cool breezes.  Summer is a short season up there, but its short life is balanced by the abundance of beauty it displays.

Watercolor on paper, 6x8

Last Spring I worked on a few paintings using photographs from past trips to the sea.  I started to become tired of my typical "blues" and as the weather became warmer, I started to experiment with  orange and yellows.  I found an inspiring photograph on Instagram by one of my friends, and used it as my guide for a sunset on the sea.  I am looking forward to returning to this color palette this autumn and winter.

Watercolor on paper, 6x8

  I would like to do more painting en plein air this year.  It feels awkward for me to be out of my studio but I think it might help me grow. I am hoping to make this a new challenge that will take me out of my routine, and to find inspiring landscapes in Indiana.

Watercolor on paper, 6x8

watching the water from sunrise to sunset

Winter WaterScapes

Watercolor on paper 8 1/2" x 5 1/2"

I've been continuing to work with watercolors.  I like them.  They are easy for me to set up, finish a painting, and easy clean my work area. I can work in watercolor paint without dedicating too much time to the process.   I have set up some new lighting in my studio. This helps me to have more flexible work hours and to be able to work at night.  

I've been out of my studio for a while.  I had a visitor who needed a bedroom for a few months, and I gladly gave her my studio/office to set up a room. I needed to change the energy in my place, and having her here helped me see what I was missing from life. During her stay, I stopped being creative and threw myself into my career. 

Now that I have my studio back, I've reorganized, and found a new desire to get back to work.  

I hung a large oil painting in my studio. It had been stored the past five years so haven't really been able to look at it.  The canvas fills most of the wall. It is the painting in the post titled "Green Blues" from 2012.  Looking at this painting everyday has inspired me to go back to this style in composition.  Calm waters in the background, with textured water or land in the foreground. 

 These watercolors include using my gold pen.  A fond memory from my days working in my atelier in Nice, France. 

Watercolor on paper 8 1/2" x 5 1/2"

Watercolor on paper 8 1/2" x 5 1/2"

Water Inspired

Water color on paper 6 x 8

 I had a little time to travel in June up to great northern Michigan.  I have Oil paintings that I have posted of this small, calm lake.  For this vacation, I wanted to do some sketching, and I chose to bring along my water colors as a way to quickly bring some color to my thoughts and sketches.    

Whenever I am at the lake, I can feel the history of the area.  The summer travelers since the early 1900's have come up here to escape the heat of the summers. Ernest Hemingway had a cottage on a lake near by.   I always feel inspired, as maybe he did, to express the peace and calm of the surrounding nature and the lake.  It's a peaceful retreat to be able to calm my thoughts, release tensions, and fill my senses with nature.

I feel privileged to be able to continue to enjoy this home away from home that I have known all my life.  I can feel much love permeating from the walls when I walk around the cottage.  Every room and hallway are filled with the love of my grandparents, and the continuing care of everyone in my family who enjoy the cottage.  The rooms still have all the same comforts that I remember from my childhood.  It is a place to escape that is familiar,and not changing too fast. I am able to easily slip into a routine that I have know all my life.   

Water color on paper 6 x 8

Water color on paper 6 x 8

Pencil on paper 5 x 7

Pencil on paper 5 x 7

Pencil on paper 5 x 7

From Sketchbook

Something New Finished

Oil on canvas 32 x 40

This is the finished painting of Facing my Fears.  I still have this new creative focus in life and art to challenge my fears and not put them behind me, but make them a part of me to help me move forward.  Defining my fears has been difficult, since through the years I have covered them with new ways of thinking to get around them.  I thought I was facing my fears then, but really I was only changing the routes to go around them.  
   
I see myself at a transition point in my life, and feeling stagnate.  Although I am passionate about new/old  ideas that I want to pursue, I have been procrastinating to take the steps that I need to make these ideas move forward.   I believe spiritually, psychologically, and physically, that challenging the fears in my life, and moving past them will give me the new energy that I need to progress.  The energy field that surrounds me will be able to open up and allow new nuances to enter and influence my direction.  If I want to keep moving forward in life, I need to cross over the fence,  or jump to the other side of the creek bed, and not be afraid of what's on the other side.  

(I watched a program on Leonardo da Vinci.. it has inspired me to try a portrait painting. :)     

Going Back

Acrylic on Canvas- 25"x 32"
tableau de Yannis

I call this painting tableau de Yannis.   While I was in Nice 2010, I asked Yannis for his advice several times for the direction I should take with this painting. 

I met with Yannis and Paulin again in September. It has been the first time to see them in five years.   It was good to see the gallery again.  It was time to go back, no regrets.   They have shared with me a significant part of my life that will not be forgotten, and for their friendship, I am grateful. 

There was always laughter between the three of us.  We were the three artists.  The best moments were spent filling my sketch book with characters and scenes while drinking vin chaude or beer in the afternoon.  We spent hours in bars sitting at a table, telling our stories conveyed in small caricature drawings.  There was once a day we spent a few too many hours at one of our favorite bars.  Our laughter and behavior started to become a little too disruptive, and eventually we were asked to leave.  There was much joy between the three of us. 

les trois amigos

 It felt good to be back again, like a second home, seeing them, and knowing that there could still be a small part of me in them as well. 

Something New

Something new, but back to something old also.    This is a painting for a concept to look at my fears.  As a result, it has influenced a lot of decisions in my daily life, and evaluating my anxieties and fears to determine their validity.   Instead of holding back, doing it anyway without "fear" of the impression that I may give out or of the consequences.  

I've spent the day in my studio today listening to Beethoven, evaluating my next step with this painting,  intending to take my brush into hand.  But today and lately, I have been too distracted.   I am overwhelmed by my thoughts and planning for my next trip to France,   Villefranche-sur-mer. It's been a long time since I have made this journey, and I hope to be able to make peace with the sea. 

Happy Day, May 2011 Villefranche sur mer

Progression

From this: 

PHASE  1:  Oil on Canvas 30x42

To this: 

PHASE 2-  Oil on Canvas 30x42

A progression from inspiration and motivation to a product of my thoughts and emotions and aspirations.   I am still not sure where I am going with this phase.  I am still experimenting in painting with no  planning or design and using intuition.  My subconscious is revealing what it believes needs to happen, even when I consciously try not to be predictable. 

Autumn

  Autumn Waterscape -Oil on Canvas 36" x 48"

I didn't want to paint another waterscape, but this came out so quickly and easily, I did not let it go.  I let it flow, and I am not disappointed.  The colors show my transition into less blue and more sepia tones.   

Feeling a little blue lately.   My birthday is arriving soon, and much reflection about my past, present, and future,  the unknown future. 
I just finished a new painting.  A painting with no forethought, planning, design, or reason, only intuition and desire.  It gave me a lot of new energy and inspiration to start another. Hopefully this new productive energy can carry me through the winter, and into a new season.   

Transitions

Oil on Canvas- 36"x 48"

I finally finished my blank canvas in July.  My life has been transitioning with work, and I am feeling myself opening up for more travel again.   

Transitioning and acquainting myself with my past, and finding its bearings on my current path of Life Journey. Transitioning away from the daily routines that do not provide me growth, and cause me to question my place in the broader scheme of life.   Living and searching for more joys in life, and cutting out the persons and activities that feel like there is a weight wrapped around my ankles. 

Maybe I'm just tapping my heals wishing "There's no place like home, There's no place like home."

My Blank Canvas

Charcoal on Canvas- 36"x 48"

 My new canvas hanging on the wall in my studio, unfinished. Five months it has been waiting.  Everyday I look at it ,and study it, and I see all the colors and brush strokes. All the steps that I need to take to make it complete.

As spring brings warmer days, I want this scene to come to life.

Day Dreams

Italian Water scape  Oil on Canvas- 36"x 48"

My work has been challenging in the real world, and as a result, I think my paintings seem to reflect some of the challenges that I am facing and the hope of some relief at the end of the year.  I started and finished this painting to help me work through a difficult time.  

My dreams of traveling are mixed with a feelings of entrapment, 
but I know that this phase of living will have an end. I'm already planning travels and filling my thoughts with day dreams along the Cote d'Azur with sunshine, blue sky, wine and the Sea.  

In subject and composition, I have started a new painting with this same theme, but it is laid out with a different point perspective.  I am anxious to see the future that the finished piece will reveal to me. 

Dreams

Italian Water scape  Oil on Canvas- 22"x42"

A few weeks ago  a friend and I were talking about vacations. We discussed what the perfect vacation meant to each of us.   The perfect vacation to me is time away from my routine life, and painting...Spending a little time each day painting on a canvas or in other types of creative endeavors. 

I have traveled twice this summer to two separate inspiring locations... but since the logements were not my own, my creative time was limited by participating only as an observer.   I have a dream to find a space one day that I can make my own, and set up "shop".  Somewhere to escape for productive and frequent times away; regenerating my energy. 

A place where I can explore the landscapes around me and feel the energy of my neighbors and life on the street.  A place that I don't have to feel isolated, but a place where I can be productive and focused with mes oeuvres and still have an opportunity to step out and interact in the world around me.  This dream is very familiar to me because this dream was once a part of my life.  And now I seek this dream again. 

These words come to my mind "Seek and you will find", but I know also that "when you dream, you are already there." 

Painting Inspired

Oil on Canvas 32" x 40"

 I completed this painting after my trip to Italy.  I was a little hesitant to believe that this painting could be completed because the architect in me wanted to see a little more depth and realism for the architectural symbolism.  I was eager to start work on another idea, and I wanted to move forward.   I came to the conclusion that this painting represents a vision of a memory, like recalling a dream that is not so vivid after you awake.   I am working on another painting with the same theme and colors, and feel very inspired by the colors. 

I originally wanted this painting to be full of all my thoughts for Florence and of the architecture in Florence.  But from my perspective, it is apparent that I could not escape the beauty that I saw in Venice.  I am merging together all my thoughts and feelings into one painting, a dream and a memory. 

Going back to Italy

It has been too long since I have seen my blog and written in it.  Once this was a place for my personal therapy and for personal reflection, but then it became a place where I could only see what was missing in my life.  While feeling severely uninspired, this blog became a reminder of who I had been, and the parts of me that I felt were lost.   But finally, I was able to take a long awaited and much needed vacation for myself.  My dream for the last two years has been to return to Italy, Firenze. 

It was a much needed break from my professional work ; work that seemed to never want to stop.  I literally was about to collapse under all the stress of other peoples daily requests and problems for me to solve.  But  having 10 days away from the office has transformed my health and attitude. I only peeked at my work emails a couple times, and that was enough.  

I chose Florence and Venice for my travels.  I carefully laid out the course of my journey for these two destinations and the number of days spent in each.  I am spontaneous in my traveling that I don't plan too many visits to places that I "must see".  I always give myself the leisure of strolling the city to explore, and only 1 or 2 must see places.  After all, it is my vacation. I do not want the added stress of a day filled with sites and a time schedule too constrained.  That would be work.  I tell myself, I can return on another trip, and see what I missed on the last trip.

Venice was a last minute destination. I had never desired to travel to Venice but it was highly recommended.  I only had one night and one entire day to spend in Venice.  I would not hesitate to return.   I adored the tiny winding streets and the water canals.  Blue sky and sunshine graced me on this trip.    

My pilgrimage to Florence that I have been anticipating for the last two years, was more of a trip of reconciliation with the past than exploration.  I had traveled to Florence before, but there were many memories of confusion, sadness, and dismay that I have associated with this city. My heart knew it was a beautiful wonderful place to visit, but the past several years, I have not been able to enjoy looking back or seeing the old photos from my previous journey. 

But, this trip finally gave me new light and meaning for Florence. It became my place again.    I am very happy and content I was finally able to experience it's beauty.  I only wish that while I was there,  that I had more time to just sit and relax and soak up the atmosphere.  It was my mission to walk everywhere, wander the streets and reconnect with old places with new eyes. I will return. 

 

I have been painting again.  I am very pleased to know that my painters block has been lifted.  I see in my mind's eye a melange of orange and yellow patterns that represent the colors of Italy. I hope that I can continue to find balance between my work and personal life to pursue these new inspirations. 

Florence

Venice

                                      

Photography

 I have been working on  Industrial photography lately.  I recently purchased a new Nikon point and shoot pocket size camera for traveling.   It's not the most expensive camera, but for me, as long as I can get a great resolution, and some options with the f-stop, that is all I need.

I am attracted the patterns of geometry in the architecture or design,  and the splashes of color that develops from natural decay, age, or graffiti.  I am fascinated by all the colors or textures that occur naturally, and overlay the original design. 

I found this post while I was walking and it intrigued me with it's splash of pink coloring.   and the yellow. 

I am not painting as much...but still working through some ideas.  I have not finished anything new to post, but with the summer and sunshine, I want to be outdoors as much as possible. 

Chapter: Winter to Spring

Oil on Canvas 11x14



It has been a long winter, and I'm ready for spring. Not only are spring temperatures beginning to return but the spring of rebirth. I have been talking very often about traveling again, but now I have a plan that I feel comfortable that I can bring to fruition.

I am still continuing my Waterscape paintings, and more ideas are coming to me, especially an idea for a larger painting. Not too large, but large enough to express new ideas and thoughts.

Another Chapter

 

Oil on canvas- 11"x14"

I am still working on working on these small canvas's.  I am not working as often as I would like to work on them. I want to produce as many as possible to see them all together, and finally see the story that they create together.   They are all in my thoughts each day, and waiting for each new one to take it's place next the one previous.

Short Stories



Oil on Canvas 11x14

Recently I was inspired by a friend of mine who is also an artist to work in a smaller format.   This was an important moment for me because until I saw the body of work he had produced, I was giving up painting and being an artist.   In the past few months since my last post, painting represented to me not a labor of love but labor to prove my value and worthiness to call myself an artist.  Without any new inspiration, I closed the door to future work. 



Oil on Canvas  11x14



 

It has been refreshing for me to work again in these small canvas's.  It's a quiet passion.  A smaller work that does not come with the rewards of seeing a large canvas come to life, but gives me the satisfaction of moving forward. I am still passionate about my Lake Scenes, or now they have become just "Water Scenes".  This format lets me continue to work with my mind's eye freely and without justification. 

Calm Lake- Verison 2

Calm Lake- Rough Waters     Oil on Canvas 48" x 60"

 This is the second version of the Calm Lake painting that I posted earlier.   There were many tears shed, much anxiety, and confusion felt while I labored on this canvas.   When it was finally completed I felt relief that I still know that I can move forward.  I may be slow to move, but at least there is advancement.  

I have been planning a trip over seas again, to Italy and Nice.  It has been almost 1 1/2 years since my last trip.  I am ready for a new adventure.